Thursday, October 31, 1985

Cross, do not fail me


            Cross, do not fail me
            when it comes my hour
            to bleed. As to a strong-masted vessel,
            let me be bound to you to share your power.
            Hug me close as the wind we together wrestle.
           
            Lost, let them nail me

            as my ransomed soul
            a steed of spirit mounts and my hungers hang.
            Let me inherit what the jailer stole
            and hidden, as I thirst, what prophets sang.

Wednesday, October 23, 1985

Oh, for the sighing of the flesh

Samantha Romano, sketch
Oh, for the sighing of the flesh after its own kind,
for the seeking of the eye after other eyes
which, as itself, see form and beauty, 
and must prize
a comeliness to which it must be blind.

Oh, for the wanderings of the mirrored mind

in memory’s research
after its past allies,
for the hungerings of the heart
that tantalize unsullied souls
that have withstood the wind.

This song I fastened

to an earless banner
waving unseen in the night
while scattering the weight
of unnumbered mournings over a life caressless,

and shared what shone through an enshrouded craving

with them who likewise lamented their thankless fate
as criminals awaiting
Someone to arrest us.
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Sunday, October 20, 1985

Kabbalah

Blessing of the Sun, Yoram Raanan
These mysteries —
oh, how they are
but of a friendship truly begun
and gratefully the connecting signs! —
that help us to see
unfolded by stages the Beloved and the Lover
(in all around us as in the one within)
revealed to each other,
and the trailing steps of the first
to travel freely to the depths,
who now becomes the last,
who never must begin.

Let them be to me,

timeless, your embraces
as these few words of mine to you
would clasp
you long and warmly
and firmer than the flesh,
so spirits unhindered by haves and naughts
may mesh,
and hearts in heavy harmony
may grasp
the best and brightest
in each other’s faces.
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Saturday, May 4, 1985

What do I mean by these words



                        What do I mean by these words
                        which contradict each other?
                        
                        What is this course I am counseling
                        that seems to lead nowhere sound?
                        
                        These words,                        
                        like sparks spraying                        
                        from the sharpening wheel,                        
                        while what really is the matter                        
                        is shaped and sharpened,
                        they only indicate,                        
                        not the direction of my soul                        
                        nor advice to any,                        
                        but there is a wheel turning,                        
                        and one fashioning a tool somewhere.
                        
                        Again, seek,                        
                        stopping to undo your shoes,                        
                        the holy mountain,                        
                        and then cease,                        
                        dropping to your knees                        
                        beside the stream                        
                        that issues from the root                        
                        of an enormous tree,                        
                        flowering and bearing fruit                        
                        like a luscious fountain,                        
                        and know this — unlike my poems,
                        this is no dream,                        
                        only attainable ingress                        
                        into living eternity.

                        Leave behind all the talk                        
                        lavishing your spirit.                        
                        Approach the source of song,                        
                        more searing as you near it.
                        
                        After words,                        
                        return to your proper place and peel
                        the skin from your eyes                        
                        that were so draped and darkened.
                        They only vindicate,                        
                        not the inspection of your soul                        
                        nor the price of plenty,                        
                        but Wisdom is wild,                        
                        learning does not languish in its lair.
                        
                        Where have you been by your own words,
                        my sister or my brother?                        
                        Take your resourcefulness querying
                        beyond me to holy ground.

Wednesday, May 1, 1985

David and Jonathan

Two Men, Gayatri Manchanda
Two scholars meet by night on the Temple steps.
The shadows, cold and moistness, and the moon,
no stars in sight, clouds gray and high, and soon
to sing, to study Torah, and to commune
as soul to soul will go the two adepts.

The one has waited but not long,

for they had planned the time beforehand.
Calmly does he lean against a wall,
his hands and face are clean, his head is covered,
in the dark is barely seen his outlined figure
by his yearning friend.

The other having long one like the first expected

sees, blinded by his hope, him standing there,
the brother and the lover of his prayer
to God, with whom to mount the sacred stair
of pure devotion, which by himself
he had neglected.

They meet.

The one his hand his comrade’s shoulder presses,
the other greets him,
on his neck he shapes a kiss, and then as arms embrace
they speak of this fond partnership in Torah,
song, and bliss,
while walking to the Temple’s stark recesses.

The two, for warmth reclining close and under

one heavy blanket like a looming prayer shawl,
cite scriptures, feeding on the beauty of it all,
and praise their Lord for his restraining call,
now and again touch eyes or hands in wonder.

Oh, for the true, redeeming message that comes through

such witnesses in his victorious love
as in his word so said or sung can move!

Oh, for the ecstasies that one cannot tell of

that might arise in lovers like these two!

Get thee a comrade: This teaches that a man should get a comrade for himself, to eat with him, drink with him, study Scripture with him, study Mishna with him, sleep with him, and reveal to him all his secrets, the secrets of the Torah and the secrets of worldly things.
— Abot de Rabbi Natan, Version A
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Saturday, April 27, 1985

The enemy's inroads through the forests of my flesh go deep


The enemy's inroads
through the forests of my flesh
go deep.

He seeks not open country.
See how he hides between
rows of manicured foliage where he works unseen
or by night,
insinuating out of sight
subtle trappings, seductions, and thoughts unclean,
while watchmen and woodsman are away, or sleep.

Many they be who stand along the march and fend,
many on the roads aware, beating the bush to find
the fever feeding on the shadows there
— oh, and the woodsman,
helpless one brandishing one axe against the ambush,
— all on the Day depend.

Deep in the darkest and thickest ravine, or high
in the narrowest, windiest pass, where trees
rise so close beside the trail one can scarcely squeeze by,
there comes the enemy out from his covert nigh,
uncomfortable, mean — oh, how he taunts,
afraid of one woodsman's axe even then,
— by mere suggestion, how he plies his victories.

Hand-bound and toe-nailed in a death-dusty heap,
would man were not jailed so, in such misery weep,
— but oh, at the summit, skirting the tree line
the first whispering of warmth, rumor of radiance divine,
and in streams gravitating to the gullies below
the same lustre of healing in the animate flow,
— but watchmen and woodsman most certainly know

also hidden a ransoming fire does not sleep, though
the enemy's inroads
through the forests of my flesh
go deep.


Tuesday, April 23, 1985

The Word is mighty


The word is mighty,
of this I have no doubt,

though it is but the sound
of the immortal spring that flows with life only,
not with life and death,
to which, when thirsting,
I repair and drink.

The mind has ears
for what it cannot think
as it would join its syllables to breath.

I quiet sit
astride its wanderings
in restoration
never reasoned out.

Some the word as weapon,
some as spade apply,
or verbal idol lavished with applause,
or bait the trap
between themselves and fate.

Some weaken what is strong,

some fortify the feeble or manipulate the laws,
and I,
I listen,
slake my thirst, and wait.

Saturday, April 13, 1985

His mercy is severe


His mercy is severe
who arms the Pleiades with light
and girds the soul through conscience
for the moral fight.

His love is far too strong,
His eye too piercing bright
for man, who only can
endure through many veils His sight.

His judgment orders messengers

to us deprived of might,
and stands our sin before us
as we hurry into night.

His purity, His truth, His beauty

empty out of white,
swords flashing, cymbals crashing,
music, multiplicity, delight.

His promise is unhedged

and hangs persuasive at our right,
whose mercy is severe
and arms the Pleiades with light.
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